temptations

for a moment i was sorely tempted
i wanted to take your hand and say
just stay for a while
dont be so scared.

i wont ask for forever
a little scrap of your time
or your heart,
will last me a while

i wanted to hold on to you and cry
this time has broken.
even my stubborn heart.
i never felt like this before.

dont be scared for tomorrow.
i’ll be gone before sunrise.
i’m more scarder than you are;
but stay tonight.

i need you, like i never knew
i could need before,
stay still for a moment,
or a night, or a few days.

hold me close, let me in
let me breathe your spirit in,
its so beautiful …
ur perfection, defined.

let me warm my hands, in the light in your eyes.
i’m frozen from being outside.
stay still for a moment,
i’ll be gone by daylight.

i’m not looking for forever.
just a little scrap of your time,
or your heart,
will last me a while.

i could have said all that
i would have said all that
if i only dared
if i only knew, if it wasnt just a lie

11.03.2007

gypsy boy

walking in the evening
i met a gypsy boy
he looked dreaming, happy
he looked kind of sad
so i smiled at him and he smiled back
and i asked him where he was at
this is what he said to me
as he smiled and answered back

he said, i’m standing at a point
where i have never been before
seen either side of the road
but never trappen in the middle before
and from this place and moment
i wouldnt know where to go
if this road goes nowhere
i dont know where i’ll go

so i asked him if he’ll come with me
come out from the cold
he shaked his head and smiled again
and he said he’d never leave

friends

funny how i never saw what you saw …
thank god you pointed it out!
i was blinded by my most sacred alter.
or maybe even that was always self deception?

could it be for anyone so hard to learn
that your internal image of relating is essentially flawed
it’s vital not to care too much. or to judge, target worth
three decades. is that too much to learn?

my little one. i have tried so hard to save you.
to hide you. to teach you. shelter you while you grow
but i need your help to make it, love.
if you keep coming out, they will keep doing this

now dont come to me with big torn eyes
dont sit before me staring at the blood that way
i had warned you, about perfect strangers
they’re not like you. they’re flawed in a different way.

friends

funny how i never saw what you saw …
thank god you pointed it out!
i was blinded by my most sacred alter.
or maybe even that was always self deception?

could it be for anyone so hard to learn
that your internal image of relating is essentially flawed
it’s vital not to care too much. or to judge, target worth
three decades. is that too much to learn?

my little one. i have tried so hard to save you.
to hide you. to teach you. shelter you while you grow
but i need your help to make it, love.
if you keep coming out, they will keep doing this

now dont come to me with big torn eyes
dont sit before me staring at the blood that way
i had warned you, about perfect strangers
they’re not like you. they’re flawed in a different way.